Ever have one of those moments when something just makes sense to you, like some sort of revelation? Some people refer to these as “aha” moments. It’s like truth going from your head to your heart; your spirit just knows it.

I remember a time when we lived in the Dominican Republic and we began going to different churches holding conferences. I would do the praise and worship and Robert would teach. We had been to a couple of other churches so far and I had even been worship leading in Spanish for a few years, but for some reason I was really, really nervous at this one church.  There seemed to be a spirit of legalism and I had this intense fear of messing up. A real fear that, if I messed up and did not do a good job of worship leading, then I would be rejected and considered a failure. The funny thing was that we were in this church to teach about how much Father God loves us even though we do mess up and that He never sees us as a failure! God wanted to take me deeper in His love.

So the meeting started and I began to play. Then it happened-one of those “aha” moments. I knew that I knew Father God was with me and that no matter how I played, however much I messed up in front of everyone, it did not stop Him from loving me and approving of me. This truth was revealed deeper into my spirit and I saw myself as this little girl with a great big Dad, Who just wanted me to play like I always did and worship Him in simplicity. I did not have to put on a show, or prove anything to anybody. I knew I was loved.

The praise exploded at that point, I could do no wrong in His eyes so why not just go for it? I danced as I played, I shouted, I had sweat pouring off of me onto my keyboard so much I had to take a handkerchief and wipe it off every now and then (no A/C)! What a glorious time that was! I was set free from my fear of failing.  I was set free from my fear of being rejected. I was loved!